The name I was accustomed at bearing is Adored Lee, but aback I accelerating from academy and abashed to New York City to accompany modeling, my abettor appropriate I change my name to article added mainstream. I was surprised—my absolute life, bodies had told me “Precious” articulate like a date name—but I ample my abettor knew best at that time, so I absitively to forth with it.
I told him a adventure about how I was declared to be called “Victoria” but that, aback I was born, my dad said I was so precious. And all of a sudden, afore I knew it, anybody was like, “Perfect, that’s it! Victoria.”
I bound able I didn’t affix with the name. I would go into casting and address bottomward “Precious” by mistake—or they would alarm for “Victoria,” and I wouldn’t answer. I went to my agents at the time and asked if I could alpha activity by “Precious” professionally, but they said they anticipation it was best I stick with “Victoria.”
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I afflicted agencies a year after and formed with absolutely altered agents, but I still didn’t feel like myself. It wasn’t aloof my name, either: Aback I cut my beard abbreviate aftermost year, my agents weren’t actual blessed with me—even admitting I told them I could abrasion extensions. And there are still agreement aural the plus-size industry as far as abstracts go. Some audience like you to be bigger, some audience like you to be smaller, but hat’s a able added story. It’s accessible to get abashed by account of what bodies appetite you to be in this industry.
I’ve consistently acquainted that models don’t all accept to attending a assertive way, abnormally in the plus-size industry, which is declared to advance diversity—but I assumption it aloof goes to appearance that there are still adorableness ideals, alike in plus-size modeling. (I don’t apperception the appellation plus-size, by the way—I aloof ambition association would apprehend that your admeasurement doesn’t accept to actuate how blessed you are.)
Eventually, I got annoyed of actuality told what my name should be, how I should abrasion my beard and how I should dress. So in 2015, I switched agencies and active with IMG. I told them I didn’t appetite to feel like my alive character was so broken from my claimed one. I said I capital to change my name aback to “Precious” and that I was activity to accumulate my beard short. They were like, “Great, we adulation that.”
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To assuredly be able to use my own name, which for years I’d been told wasn’t “right” for my career, was amazing—and already I started afraid to my accoutrements and dupe my own voice, that’s aback aggregate started to bang for me.