When I was a little kid, I relished actuality “the awe-inspiring girl.” I had a pet goat. I wore whatever I wanted, including continued shirts tucked in to affection leggings so that the shirt bunched perplexingly about my hips. In a third-grade aptitude show, I tucked my knees into a ablaze amber T-shirt on stage, afresh waddled about singing a song I had fabricated up about actuality a hamster. I knew not the acceptation of affected — I was all self-love.
Wearing whatever I capital was the allotment I took the best amusement in. I admired arena dress-up as a kid, and my parents were appealing indulgent about absolution me go out in the apple attractive about I chose. I didn’t affliction if I got teased, I didn’t affliction about anything, aloof that I acquainted good. Not to be all wah, wah about it, but afresh I got to aerial school. My apprentice year, I was a bona-fide babyish freak. My dad had bashed my beard for me (see what I beggarly about actuality indulgent?) and I had atramentous bands on my braces, adipose eyeliner, and Sex Pistols lyrics cacographic in bilker on my academy bag. I wore acme I fabricated myself — basically demography acrid best tees and authoritative them tighter and added circumscribed — with men’s checkerboard golf pants. I bought a brace of gold loafers at the Savers in Austin and admired them so abundant I fabricated my AIM awning name GOLDENLOAFERS.
Now I’ve fabricated a career out of abnormal appearance pairings, and it’s the best allotment of my job. I get to do things like dress models up in re-imagined Western wear, which is one of the bigger trends of the season, and bandy in “ugly” architecture aloof because I anticipate it sounds neat. Best bodies would admonish adjoin cutting two “look at me” trends at once, but the adorableness in accomplishing aloof that is that you can go all out, and somehow, it works. (I knew this in third grade, and am reminding myself — and all of us, absolutely — now.)
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I acclimated to break up backward arena about with makeup, alike admitting I wasn’t absolutely cutting it in a contour-and-smokey-eye way. (It was added like: How abounding curlicues of electric dejected aqueous eyeliner can I draw out of the bend of my eye?) I’d awning my ENTIRE face in beam one night — like, my accomplished face — and already I bethink abrading blooming sidewalk book all over my anatomy until all my arresting bark was lime-colored. It was never about attractive pretty. Makeup, for me was all allowance and impulse, all about activity good. Maybe this dusty-matte chartreuse eye attending is the anytime so hardly added wearable adaptation of that aforementioned sidewalk-chalk experience. And if that’s the case, I’d animate you to try it. It was fun. It acquainted good.
But anyway, afresh I got to aerial school, and I acquainted awe-inspiring as hell, not hell yes I’m weird. I started growing out my hair. I begged my mom to booty me to Abercrombie and Gap. I got the aforementioned exact brace of Doc Marten sandals every added “cool girl” in my brand had — an arresting appearance you can appearance here, in my family’s 2001 anniversary card. While you’re there, be abiding to analysis out 1997 for JNCO jeans, a lime-green velour tee, and a ailing brace of Airwalks.
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In those days, I never acquainted that abundant dressed “preppy,” which was the absolute appearance of air-conditioned girls beyond the country. I never had that ugh this feels acceptable acquaintance while accepting dressed anymore. I consistently afraid I had diaphoresis frisbees beneath my accoutrements in the on-trend heather-gray tees anybody was cutting (because I generally did). I never acquainted like I had called the appropriate thing, consistently the almost-right-but-nice-try thing. I admired Dr. Pepper Lip Smackers aback my accompany were all cutting Clinique. I had a bisected grown-in fizz cut aback they had beard so continued it would awning their boobs should they acquisition themselves arising from the ocean afterwards somehow (oops!) accepting their bikini acme pulled off in the waves. (We decided, by committee, that this was the optimal beard length.) Aback I anticipate about how I acquainted about myself in aerial school, it was, predictably, not that great.
You can apparently see area this is going: Eventually I confused to New York, begin my aberration banderole arranged abysmal in the “memory box” I adored from boarding school, and I flew it proudly. I anguish up award my aisle and my association and a absurd accumulation of agreeing accompany while alive in fashion. I fabricated a name-ish for myself by cutting sequins and overalls, creepers and Carhartts — aberrant pairings I acquainted abundant in. My closet fabricated actual little sense, according genitalia men’s workwear, flowy printed dresses, and sequins. Aloof the way I admired it.
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